Thursday, November 24, 2016
Thankful for being able to keep a promise
(Note: I started this post during my first week at my new job and as it sat in the draft queue it changed a little. I hope you enjoy it.)
This past week has been one of new challenges and some heartbreak. You see, I started a new job and as you can see from the picture above I am working in the downtown area. Everyday this week, I have been waking up at the crack of dawn, hopping on the train and spending eight hours in a building by the river, which I guess is better than living in a van down by the river, but let's get back on point.
I was lucky enough to learn about this position from one of my wife's friends and lucky enough to be hired pretty soon after my interview. I did have to leave my job at Gamestop for this job, but I have been searching for something more consistent for a while. I will miss talking about video games all day with co-workers and customers though.
So now I am working for a pretty good company and using my writing and editing skills to earn a living. The great thing about this job is that it will help me keep my promise that I had made to my children when they wore born: to ensure that they have the necessities that they need.
If you have been reading our blog for a while you will know that I have been having issues with my place in the family. While I have not wrote about it in a while, I have been overwhelmed lately and feeling depressed a lot. To combat these feelings I have been keeping myself busy with my son on the days I do not work and I try to keep the blog up to date or at least keep it interesting for visitors to see.
While everything might seem great from the outside, inside I am going crazy. I'm always trying to figure out how the next bill will get paid or when a check from a sponsored post will arrive. I'm doing all of this while trying to not let it affect my children. I always feel that if they see me worry, it'll affect them and make them resent my wife and I for working a lot.
This is where the heartbreak part comes in. Now that I am going to be working everyday, I will not be able to take my daughter to school everyday like I used to. I'm going to miss those little talks we had in the morning as we made our way to her school. My daughter always wants me to go with her on her field trips, but that is something that I will not be able to do for a while.
I will not be spending as much time with my son everyday too. While we always hung out on the days I did not work, now he will be spending his days with his grandparents. I know I might be getting a little dramatic here, but I really will miss those times we had together. This new dynamic is something that he will have to get used to, but it is something that needs to be done to better our lives.
As parents we all have to make sacrifices to make our children's lives better and this is one of the sacrifices that I am willing to make. But, as I sit back and think about the things that I will miss with my children, I am also thankful about this new beginning in my life. I feel that things will slowly, but surely start getting better and a burden will be lifted off of my back.
When I think about all of the things that are happening in the world, I am glad that I am going to be able to change my world a little bit. Yes, this job will take time away from my children during the day, but I have all night and the weekends to give them great experiences. Because isn't that what we are supposed to give our children, great experiences not just material things?